I sit here in tears

that cannot in any way even begin to express my gratitude. My happiness. I have been blessed. That is the only way that I can describe it. I have been blessed with the most perfect little being who I love more than I even know. To see her little face melts my heart. To touch her little hand is ecstasy personified. I have no words to describe the love that my heart holds for my child, my daughter who is herself a gift. I adore her in every way.

I am grateful to my protectors, my mother OYA, my ancestors, to the loving support I received while I housed her and continue to receive as I rear her and grateful to her dad who is loving, sweet, dependable, honorable and my partner in her life.

Having a C Section Sucks

My body hurts more than its ever hurt in my life. I'm sore, I can barely get up at night. Peeing hurts, pooping hurts, walking hurts, my feet are so swollen, I don't even feel like myself. This sucks.

I can barely get out the bed. I peed on myself just trying to get up. Turning in bed hurts, moving hurts. My insides feel like someone pulled a rake back and forth over them. But, I have this little precious person, so, I guess its okay.